The matters of the heart...

As the title suggests, its a post where I talk about my conflicted heart condition, blah blah blah.

So if you're one of those people who hate depressing and pessimistic stuff, I suggest you stop. Like NOW. Okay, since you've made your mind to read on, don't go all loko on my ass afterwards. (loko is my way of saying mad)

So getting back to the topic in my mind, this post too was written in a place where there was water. No, not the beach, but my shower. While I was taking a shower in the morning, I couldn't help but regain all the things that were currently revolving around my life. Yeah, part of it is the 'basic teenager love' issue. Most of it is, however, the problem of me not living up to my expectations. Come to think of it, I'm not the only one who doesn't live up to their expectations. There are a millions of peeps out there who don't live up to their expectations.  But that, in particular, also isn't what my topic speaks about.
My topic "TRIES" to convey the thought on love. Love with a person. The kind of love that makes want to to anything to keep that person happy. The kind of love in which all you ever want is to see a person be simply put, happy. 

Imagine a case where you meet a person. Person becomes friends with you. Friendship turns into close friendship. You guys start filling each other up on everything small and big happening in your lives. Suddenly you start feeling something more. Suddenly you want to take a step higher. Suddenly you feel that that person is the one your heart has decided to love. You come to see that the person gives all the love and care that you don't get from your family, friends, possessions.....you start falling for that person. Pretty bad.
But now here comes a fork in the road.
Some people go ahead and speak their hearts and confess.
Some don't quite do that.
Why don't the "non-confessing just keeping quite" kinda people not confess and keep quite?
Is it because they are scared of rejection? Or what?
I, on a personal note, prefer to just go ahead and prepare for the worst while hoping for the best. Which I actually did too.....and since I'm writing this...you must have already figured that I didn't quite go as I had expected it to go. 
But then, I already know that I can move on and search for someone else (That's another thing that I have decided to keep my hopes with her)....
Wait...how did I reach here? *goes back up and reads what I typed*
Well, seems like I have no idea how to continue....
This is Raheel Haque with a very late post as usual, 00:36 22/01/13